this is a blog which i wrote just after me and my ex broke up, it's on my phone, so i'm clearing up space. it's nothing harsh about him. i swear, i just miss him.

I miss being that number one, I'm now single, my two bestfriends friends have upgrades from me, some-one who'll beat me.
I want some loving please?
I miss the thought of knowing you're the person who they'd call and run to in a crisis. That you can go to bingo with, all best friends go to bingo. I miss you and it's only been a week, I miss you a lot.
- now I am writing in present date, it's been two weeks now, the other day would of made us up to another month. but things are looking up now. things are being ok. and we're not together for a reason. we're ment to be bestfrined. i love you bruv'

Well, after 6 months of blogging about, and nearly 4 months of going out with him it's over. I am sad, I'm not going to lie. It's not just my boyfriend I've lost, it's my bestfriend. I've got memories which won't be the same when looked upon and it's just sad. I'm not mad at him, if anything it's me. I care to much which makes people repel, I'm no goddess I have insecurities and I've had tough times you are there to make it to my best. It's not nice, I couldn't finish my mac and cheese and I'm sexually frustrated. What a thing to post on the Internet, jk the only one who would read this would be well. Olly but I don't know. Olly if you are reading this: I don't hate your guts out, you mean the world to me as you've helped me' through times with James and you've been there when I've been scared and petted me' when ill. I'm sorry we couldn't be anything more and I love you, you'll always have a part of me' even if it's my cheesy lines and words on postcards.